The time has come. That first draft of Kaneji has been sent to my editor, and now I wait.
Anyone who has ever dealt with rejection can understand how it feels to be held on suspense about something they worked hard for. What if all your hopes and dreams aren’t as good as you’d like to think. What if no one likes it, at the very least the editor.
I found myself sinking into a hole of deep thoughts of all the twists and turns of how this can go. Trying to think where I want to go from here, my expectations, and to prepare myself for rejection.
It happens. It’s life.
I’m an overthinker, a worrier, and a paranoid person when it comes to myself. I’m so hard on myself. I have trouble believing in myself, so I never stop to think, what if someone likes my story?
If even just one person enjoys a world I built from scratch, that would be enough. Nothing is ever going to be perfect the first time around, and this is no different.
I’m hoping for the best and preparing for the worst.
Now we wait…