Getting annoyed at the inevitable

I’ve been rather moody lately for whatever reason and I think it’s one of the reason I’ve barely touched my laptop.

Not even just mean moody but sad, and emotional moody too.

So I felt like I was making great headway with my first piece of the second draft of Kaneji, and I feel like my editor had worse to say about this version than the first.

The sad part is with the first version, I agreed with most of what he was saying so I had no problem changing stuff( although the second half of my second version is still unwritten), but now I find myself wanting to be more defensive.

As I have said it before I absolutely adore my editor and he is a great guy, but I honestly am starting to think that maybe I’m not cut out for this writing a book thing.

I know that rejection is a part of writing and you have to get used to adding and deleting but I’m starting to feel like I just plainly suck at story telling and that I should stop trying to waste my time.

Now that isn’t my editors fault I feel that way, he is doing his job and is very kind, but it is his job to tell me what isn’t working, and right now I’m starting to feel like my whole story isn’t working.

I want to finish this book and make it something I’m proud of, but if I can’t even make it past the revising stages then I’m doomed.

All of this is just a part of the process so why am I getting annoyed at the innevitable?!

2 Comments Add yours

  1. I’ve been feeling the same way lately. Just hang in there and keep working hard on your story. You will feel that much better when you finally crack the code and impress your editor. The night is always darkest just before the dawn and maybe your dawn could be just around the corner. Good luck!

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    1. Awww thank you so much !!

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